It's been a while since I've started blogging on a completely new platform. The last time I switched blogging platforms was nearly 4 years ago, so it feels kind of weird looking at this completely empty space with no posts and no archives. I guess switching to a new blog symbolizes change and it's kind of.... refreshing? But at the same time mildly uncomfortable. Writing here feels as though someone just pushed me into the middle of nowhere and I feel as though I don't really know how or where to start again.
This idea of keeping a space purely for recording down positive, happy life events has been etched in the back of my head ever since 2015 came around, but I just never got around to starting this page. I have no time. I don't know what to write. The idea actually does sound a little lame, doesn't it? School commitments. Life commitments. I suck at writing. The list of self-doubt can just go on and on, but you know what? It's been a rough few weeks and it feels as though life is taking yet another big poo poo on me, and I've decided that instead of moping around feeling all shitty about life, I'm going to start with this space. Because I've procrastinated on this for 4 months and maybe, just maybe this will be of some help to gaining some perspectives this year.
Earlier this year, on my emotional-dumping-ground-blog, I briefly reflected and set a couple of goals on what I wanted to attain this year and here's what Rachel - all excited about the brand new year, hopeful for what was in store for the new year (new year new me, amirite), had to say:
So with that, I guess with whatever life has in store for me the coming year - I'll take it. I hope to find clarity this year and gain some sort of direction of where I see myself. This year is going to be all about that self discovery shit. I want to turn into an egoistic, selfish, self loving bitch instead of constantly being self depreciating hahaha. Okay, I'm being dramatic. Whatever. I hope 2015 sucks less and may we all be sort of happy majority of the time. Life is short, give less fucks!
There's really nothing much to elaborate on after reading the above. The only thing I would like to state is: 4 months later, these issues have never been more applicable and relatable to me.
I'm still a wee bit lost as to where I see myself after graduation, a little unsure of what really drives me / motivates me / interests me, not very satisfied with how certain things are turning out in my life so far.... So done with all these uncertainties. Hence, the need to start on this blog, where the intention is to write about anything positive. People I've met, the things I've done, stories I've heard that may have impacted me in a good way - it's all one step towards gaining clarity this year (which explains this blog name, duh captain obvious).
To end this first post off, I've done up a To Do List for this year. I know, I know, people usually do goal settings at the beginning of the year. But hey, better late than never right?
Fingers crossed that I try to keep this space alive for this entire year. I think it would be a great way to write how I see myself now and Rachel in December 2015 can look back at this post and see how much I've learned and changed. (hello future Rachel, if you're reading this!) ((I hope you did good))
